On the last day of preschool
I forgot to take your picture.
But it’s okay
since you swiped my phone
and took 31 selfies
when I went upstairs
to brush my teeth.
On the last day of preschool
I drove myself to Starbucks
ordered an iced white mocha
and read a professional teaching book
for over two hours.
On the last day of preschool
I exercised in the middle of the day
because my hand
and wrist
and shoulder
hurt too much
for me to sit and write.
And I don’t know when
I’ll have the chance
to do that for a LONG time.
On the last day of preschool
I ate my lunch
and devoured popcorn
for dessert
because you weren’t watching.
On the last day of preschool
I gathered your rest mat
and change of clothes
and bathing suit
and wet towel
and loaded them in the car.
And even though everything
needs to be washed
it can wait ’till tomorrow.
On the last day of preschool
I held your hand
when we ambled to the car.
I wondered if
you will hold my hand
on the next
last-day-of-preschool
a year from now.

I so do love these posts. It reminds me of the special moments I had with my son at this age. It’s such a special time in their development.
Just lovely. I hope he will. Sometimes my 7-year-old still grabs my hand, and I remind myself that he won’t do that forever.
I love those last lines…holding hands. I can just feel that soft, precious little preschool hand. Perfect ending!
And most days, she’ll double- and triple-squeeze my hand as we walk. There’s something so precious about those little squeezes that makes me want to freeze time. {Sigh.} But I can’t.
It’s beautifully poignant with a chuckle and a grin, Stacey. Love those 31 selfies! And the popcorn, too!
Beautifully written. Last day of preschool for another beginning.
Selfies when you aren’t watching, popcorn when she isn’t watching, and holding hands. LOVE IT!
I connect to that mommy guilt of not getting last day pictures. After missing them in preschool and kindergarten, I decided that as long as I had a first day each year….I would hold off until the last day of HS! I did…it reduced my mommy guilt – and GUESS WHAT – nobody cared but me!
I’m actually kind of pleased with myself. Initially it was mommy guilt, but then I thought about it and thought life was too short to feel guilty over this. I used Moldiv to write “Last Day of School 2015” on one of her selfies. That felt kinda gratifying!
31 selfies?!?! Hahaha! I love that!! I love the celebration of the momentous and the ordinary and how seamlessly they intertwine. Such a poignant way to remember the last day of preschool! Thank you for sharing!
I love that address this is to Isabelle. My favorite stanza is what comes last as you consider what it means for your little girl to grow more independent. Challenges ahead, my friend.
I love the mix of things you did for yourself while you had the time and the things you did for her. I’ll bet she will hold your hand next year too!
This is a lovely memory! I especially love the 31 selfies!
Stacey, I was waiting to see if you would air your poem. I love the fact that you shared such beautiful memories of shared moments.
The last day of the school year is always so poignant, even when it’s not the last-last day ever. Enjoy your summer!
Your story comes through the poetic form. I can see you on that last day of preschool. So wonderful how you are saving these moments for Isabelle.
Yes, changes are inevitable, but not always bad. I am sure that Isabelle will hold your hand next year on the last day of preschool. But even if she doesn’t, she knows it is there whenever she needs it.
Your comment made me tear up earlier in the day and it does the same to me now — hours later. Thanks.
As the teacher of preschoolers, it is fun to read about the “other side” of the door. My last day with them was definitely more frantic!
This gets me at the end! I wonder. They change so quickly don’t they? I love how the feeling of this post arced so fluidly. It was real and then, I don’t know, humbling I think. I’m looking forward to preschool summer camp myself where I’ll have two hours to do something -ANYTHING- during the day by myself for the first time in months! My bet is she holds your hand more than you’ll expect her too next year.
Wow Stacey, this is so beautifully written. I didn’t see that last part coming, just jumped right out and grabbed my heart and gave it a little squeeze. Loved the 32 selfies too. I had a good old giggle. Thanks so much. 🙂
Love this little girl! What a beautiful ending, Stacey. Thanks for sharing.
Ha Ha! I love the “devouring of popcorn”, as this is my late night vice when my son is asleep 🙂
This is very dear. I love that she took 31 selfies! so funny!! Happy summer!!
She really did! Now I have to figure out which ones to upload to our photo album. So many choices!
Stacey, I love the way you captured these small moments from this day. Isabella will treasure these posts when she’s older. Have lots of fun together this summer. Four is a wonderful age!
That Mom time when no one is around is so luxurious and rare! Sounds like you made the most of Isabelle’s last day of preschool. I also love that she took 31 selfies! Hysterical!
You have captured a moment in time so wonderfully.
Love your repeating line and these words: “I held your hand when we ambled to the car.” That word amble is a wonderful word and just perfect for kicking off the leisurely days of summer. Hopefully, you’ll have some days to trade off with a friend during the summer. My good friend and I alternated days each week having Camp Mona and Camp Joanie at our homes. That was a long time ago, more than 25 years ago. Wish I had been a slicer then!